being an artist I always tend to feel that the odds are against me. a constant whirlwind of personal disapointment and overwhelming feeling of impostor syndroftme seems to be a constant thing i struggle with while making my art. or well whatever it is. i think low of my content because it never tends to stick or land a mark. conflicted i feel, i understand i have some skill but why does only the wind ever applaude my musical debauchery? am i stuck fufilling a niche no ones interested in, a market filled with impressive djs but barely any live producers? my lense on this feels so dirty and narrow i start to feel my vision fading. whats the point in self-expression if no one will ever be fully understood by their craft? this unwillingness i redeemed of incomplyiance only dawns on me once im at my lowest? i feel like i'll never do enough to be remembered... just a footnote, not a memory...
is art worth it?